Days 24-25 #MarchMeetTheMaker

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Day 25  • B E I N G • A •  M A K E R •  M E A N S . . . .

• Endless to-do lists
• Never being able to switch off from work
• Carving my own path
• Always thinking about what I can create next
• Changing the colour of leaves in photoshop just for fun!
• Living a truly colourful life
• Having a very unreliable income (hoping that will change!)
• Being my own boss
• Being able to take holidays and day trips WHENEVER I LIKE!!
• Being asked to do the most amazing commissions eg. 10 year anniversary gifts and then receiving the most beautiful feedback
• Needing to be self-motivated
• Spending too many days alone in my own head (so I recently started a meet up group for local creatives!)
• And much much more! No doubt I will keep editing this list. 📷 Me

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Day 26  • B O O K S • B L O G S • & • P O D C A S T S 

I used to be a voracious reader and the smell of old books is still one of my favourite smells! However, in this depressingly digital age my concentration span has diminished to that of a gnat and I find it so hard to concentrate on reading an actual book. Having said, I am currently really enjoying @mattzhaig‘s “How to Stop Time” and I’m hoping this will spur me into reading more again.

I also make time every morning to read some spiritual or psychology literature to guide my thinking onto more ‘healthy’ lines – current books on the go are Brene Brown’s “The Gifts of Imperfection” and Kristen Neff’s “Self -Compassion”. Eckhart Tolle is always lurking around somewhere but I have yet to integrate his teachings!

Regarding work-related books/ blogs/ podcasts I don’t read or listen to any! I get my inspiration from instagram and you tube and most recently, meet ups with real people (local creatives & small business owners) that I set up a couple months back to combat my loneliness!

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Day 23  • H A N D S • A T • W O R K •

One of my favourite things to do is flick paint randomly over my paintings and see how seemingly random flicks and splatters add texture, depth and delicious colour contrasts to my work. A painting without splatters just doesn’t look complete to me! Here’s me flicking the final flecks of paint to my first ever butterfly painting (on a 12″ vinyl record).

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Day 24  • A C H I E V E M E N T S • 

Wow, another challenging prompt for me! The very notion of achievements kind of makes me shudder. I’ve spent a lot of my life feeling inadequate because I haven’t achieved ‘enough’. I didn’t get straight As at school and I missed out on a 1st at uni by 2%, which led me to conclude I was a failure. My distorted perception basically led me to avoid striving for anything as I believed I would fail, so I spent a lot of years literally doing and achieving nothing, until I got into recovery – recovery from self-harm and many other destructive behaviours.

8.5 yrs down the line (how did that happen?!) and I can look at my recovery as my greatest achievement – breaking patterns of deeply addictive behaviour – however, at the same time, I can’t take full credit for it as I believe my recovery is a gift. All I’ve done is hold on to that gift!

Whilst my attitude towards so many things has changed, I still have a troubled relationship with achievement. I pin way too much of my self-worth on it so when I don’t achieve greatness/ accolades/ financial security I feel shit about myself. I also know it is fleeting and any satisfaction derived from it is transient, so my compulsion to ‘achieve’ is actually minimal.

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What I try and do, and I emphasise try, is to take each day as it comes and not get too hung up on externals. I’m on a mission to recognise my own intrinsic self-worth, regardless of achievements, and focus on gratitude rather than pride. Anything I do ‘achieve’ has happened because of all the help and support from those around me.

Having said that, I am delighted to have ‘achieved’ creating my first range of greeting cards. To have my artwork on real cards, with rustic brown envelopes and encased in cellophane (I really need to get the biodegradable stuff!) is really rewarding. Additionally, I also now have my art on the wall in a very special public space, which feels wonderful. Photos of that soon.

If you got to this point, thank you so much for reading❤

Days 20-21 #MarchMeetTheMaker

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Day 21  • A • D A Y • I N • T H E • L I F E •

I wake up later than I’d like and attempt to centre myself with a spiritual reading, gratitude list and yoga. I don’t always do these things but I generally feel better when I do. My to-do lists are never ending so I attempt to work my way through those, although the things not on my list are always more appealing and often get prioritised 😂Instagram posts are usually my #1 thing to do and then I get ridiculously distracted looking at pretty pictures of other people’s art and cake. Lots and lots of cake. Sometimes I do some painting. Sometimes I don’t. Photo editing takes up a massive chunk of my time, as does scrolling mindlessly through Facebook 😭 One day I will conquer that addiction.

A few hours a week are consumed by my part-time job, which pays the rent. This year I’ve spent a lot of time organising basic things for my business, as it was only January I decided to throw my whole self into this – things like finding the right packaging, frames, card printers, tools, branding stickers, new props and materials etc etc I aim to finish work by 7 or 8 then evenings are spent watching Netflix, playing board games, baking or occasionally reading. There is always always cake or some kind of sweet treat afterwards, as I pretty much live for sugar. I’d eat it all day long if I could but I’ve learned some self-restraint over the years! (This particular cake was from our last visit to Norwich Tofurei. Best cake ever!) Some days are super productive, some are not. Things always take way way longer than I think they will so I often feel like I haven’t achieved ‘enough’. Reminding myself that my worth is not based on my productivity is essential, though I often forget, and looking at what I’ve done over a period of time, not just one day, is super important for me.

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Day 22  • S K E T C H B O O K • & •  L I S T S •  
This photo is of course a little over-orchestrated as my pile of scrappy to-do lists next to my computer wouldn’t make a very pretty photo!!😂 I basically live for to-do lists. Without them I am appalling at managing my time and will faff around doing what I want, not what I need to be doing! I love writing things on to-do lists that I’ve already done, just so I can cross them off😂 and will often carry things over onto the next days list, and the next day!

I don’t own a sketchbook as I’m way too impatient to draft my way though life. Every painting I do is basically the first attempt. Planning my paintings just frustrates me so I just let loose on the real thing and hope it turns out ok!

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Days 18-19 #MarchMeetTheMaker

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Day 19  • C A N ‘ T • L I V E • W I T H O U T •

I think there’s quite a few things I can’t live without – photoshop!! my favourite brushes, vinyl records etc etc but this white paint is literally a life saver for me. I •  L O V E • I T! It’s been my mission to find a white paint that is super thick in consistency and with a high opacity. So many whites are too thin and too transparent but this white paint is amazing! I use it to prime my vinyls and I use it whenever I need white for detail and highlights. It has to be Rustins too – cheap versions just don’t work as well. Not the most exciting item but I really don’t know what I’d do without it!

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Day 20  • T O O L S • & • M A T E R I A L S •

My beloved pots of emulsion paint and the magical rainbows they can produce ❤💛💚💙💜 as well as my truly battered paintbrushes! 😂 Really need to look after these better but it’s pretty difficult when I’m using emulsion paint and white primer😐
This morning’s prompt was the perfect excuse to paint some rainbows… now I need to think about what I can paint on top of these! I’m feeling so blocked and uninspired right now. What could I paint on these? 🤔 Suggestions welcome! ❤

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Days 16-17 #MarchMeettheMaker

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Day 17  • C U S T O M E R S • & • F E E D B A C K •

Probably the thing I love most about what I do is learning why someone bought a particular piece from me. The story behind the art. The lady who bought this beetroot vinyl from me wrote to me and I just loved her story so much! … “I am so excited to get this. It is for my husband’s birthday. He does this thing when a book has touched him in a certain way. He wants a piece of art work to remember the book. He just read Tom Robbins’ Jitterbug Perfume and beets get left on people’s doorsteps. So, I couldn’t think of a better beet piece of art than this. There was a lot of lame beet paintings out there. Thank you for making an awesome one. We love our piece. It fits perfectly in our house. Thank you so much.” beet review insta 2

Day 18  • I N S P I R A T I O N •

My main inspiration is probably colour! I’m like a kid in a candy store when I see bright colours and just love playing with clashing and complementary colour combinations. I’m inspired by my perpetual desire to escape reality but also by reality itself: by nature and it’s awe-inspiring creations. I keep searching for inspiration and for things of beauty that make my heart sing as at the moment I actually feel a little stuck and uninspired. I’m intending to experiment with alcohol inks and acrylic pouring in the near future (in an attempt to get my juice flowing again) so watch this space! 😍 📷ME

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